Derealization - Deluxe Edition

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1.	I Want You 03:04	buy track
2.	Forgive Me 03:34	buy track
3.	Impromptu 00:46	buy track
4.	Fever In My Heart 03:34	buy track
5.	Words Don't Mean Much 02:19	buy track
6.	Do It Or Don't 03:46	buy track
7.	No Hard Feelings 01:57	buy track
8.	Big Talkin’ 03:04	buy track
9.	Paper Cutout 02:49	buy track
10.	Where Did You Go 02:53	buy track
11.	Corner Town 03:08	buy track
12.	I Want You - Sped Up 02:18	buy track
13.	Forgive Me - Sped Up 02:56	buy track
14.	Fever In My Heart - Sped Up 02:56	buy track
15.	Words Don't Mean Much - Sped Up 01:56	buy track
16.	No Hard Feelings - Sped Up 01:34	buy track

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We're celebrating the first anniversary of Julia, Julia's critically acclaimed album, Derealization, with a deluxe edition digital release featuring five sped-up versions! The additional material was mixed and mastered at Julia's home studio, Coma Studio, with her husband and bandmate Scott Montoya.

If you can’t trust yourself, who can you trust?

This is the crucial question at the core of Julia, Julia, the moniker for Julia Kugel, founding member of garage punk icons The Coathangers and the dream pop duo Soft Palms. On her first solo full-length album Derealization, Kugel shifts her focus from collaboration and band dynamics towards a singular artistic vision and private self-discovery. Steeped in the beguiling pop elements of her past work, Derealization is a meditative deep dive into the mind of a person struggling to understand a crumbling internal and external world. The album traverses a landscape of ethereal folk, atmospheric deconstructed pop, and dubbed-out country ballads, all centered around straight forward and direct lyrics. This juxtaposition of nebulousness and lucidity gives the album a sense of clarity emerging from the haze, an apt reflection of Kugel's personal growth and journey toward self-acceptance.

Derealization is based on weaving the unreal, unsaid, and unknown into an undulating sonic fabric. Vocal layering and abstract instrumentation convey a blurred desperation to connect to an emotional and psychological focal point. Moody, dark, and sumptuous, the record is a flow chart of Julia Kugel coming into herself as an artist and songwriter. The album finds Julia playing almost all the instruments and taking her first stab at engineering at COMA, her and her husband's home recording studio in Long Beach, CA.

“You know how touring musicians often speak of whether home is real or tour is real? Well, it can lead you to lose grasp on ‘reality,’ especially when touring is taken away and you are left to wonder if anything was ever real, including yourself. Like you we're just playing a character,” Kugel says of her headspace leading up to the creation of Derealization. “Honestly, I kinda lost it, and through making this record I made peace with it and reconciled myself as a real person. I forgave myself and in turn forgave those around me. The song ‘Forgive Me’ is the apology I wanted to say and to hear. I wrote every song from that place and gained the confidence I was pretending to possess.”

This raw and personal approach to the lyrics is present throughout Derealization. On the opening track "I Want You," Kugel creates a woozy sense of space with reverb-soaked drums and spaghetti western guitars while she lists off her desires for a mysterious “you.” Is she actually listing off her desires for herself? For the people around her? As she repeats "do you feel it?" in the song’s chorus, it feels as if she’s conjuring a magical thread by which we are all connected, showing us how our desires are all the same. On "Fever In My Heart" the listener is treated to a lush, acoustic techno track detailing the exhilarating madness of an emotional breakdown. Simple truths percolate to the surface on "Words Don't Mean Much,” as if clearing away the murk of platitudes and empty gestures. The journey continues on the detached and conflicted "Do It Or Don't,” an alluring walk through the winding road of lonely choices.

The name for the project—Julia, Julia—is a look in the mirror, a reflection of what is hidden and unanswered, of what is real and what is transient. The experience of living life not as you planned it but as it unfolded, and the mysterious, magical pain that creates meaning.

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released September 29, 2023

ALL SONGS WRITTEN AND PERFORMED BY JULIA KUGEL

MIXED AND DESIGNED BY JULIA KUGEL & SCOTT MONTOYA AT CENTRE OF MENTAL ARTS (COMA) EXCEPT "PAPER CUTOUT" & "WHERE DID YOU GO" RECORDED & MIXED BY ED RAWLS AT LIVING ROOM STUDIOS

ORIGINAL VERSIONS MASTERED BY MICK BOGGIS

SPED-UP VERSIONS MASTERED BY SCOTT MONTOYA

PHOTOS BY JASON TRAVIS

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Julia, Julia is the moniker for Julia Kugel, founding member of garage punks The Coathangers and Soft Palms. On her first solo full-length album Derealization, Kugel shifts her focus from collaboration towards a singular artistic vision and private self-discovery. ... more

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